All of this intense Cosmic Energy has brought me to my knees. Literally.
Saturn the planet of Karma & Lessons has ruled its heavy hand and joined forces with my natal moon.
In plain English: My feelings & health are heavily influenced by big lessons, hardships and discipline in my house of health and daily life. Saturn wants me to get down to business and restructure any emotions that are not serving me or supporting me with a solid foundation.
Is your Moon or any other planets in Scorpio?? Saturn may be conjunct and causing you to feel more responsibility and burden than is actually there….
This also means that right now my workload and life in general can feel VERY heavy regardless of how much that is actually accurate. And let me tell you, regular responsibilities have weighed me down so much lately….I just keep pushing through.
Now, my body has said, “NO MORE”.
This week took me to my knees. My legs felt as though they were 100lbs each! My stomach started its rumbling and when I tried to work on anything my brain just WOULD NOT cooperate. I’ve always been a hard worker and, believe it or not, I’ve toned it down quite a bit. However, from time to time my workaholic efforts get the best of me and I have to be reminded of where I am pushing it once again.
Life stepped in. SLEEP, SLEEP & MORE SLEEP… 7pm at night until 11am in the morning….My body just wouldn’t do anything else. YES, I’m a yoga teacher and if you think that means I should never get stressed out then you are disillusioned. ALL of us, no matter the path, are human and get off course from time to time.
I’ve noticed that I spend time giving a lot of myself…. Giving energy, giving time, giving effort, giving remedies to others to help them with de-stressing and relaxation, giving support, giving advice, giving, giving & GIVING. And while I do not want to stop giving, there comes a time when I must remember to RECEIVE.
RECEIVE SO THAT YOU CAN GIVE. It’s easy to say this and yes I do give to myself through meditation and yoga. (Although, my yoga practice has suffered a bit lately) But, what about time for fun? What about time for enjoyment and your personal life? What about a day where you just don’t have to think about work, putting together a project or a class or anything at all for that matter!
DAYS OF DOING NOTHING ARE NEEDED.
That’s what I have forgotten. Have you??
This past week the Universe has brought me to my knees. I’ve gone from Tears, to Anger, Frustration and just plain EXHAUSTION. I’m not afraid to be human, I am human. And the reality is, some days you just don’t want to get out of bed. So, you don’t.
It’s been important for me to remember that I can’t be everything to everyone else without being something for my self FIRST. I pride myself on being reliable and responsible. I prefer to show up and follow through and sometimes at all costs. If you are this type of person too, the question is “WHAT IS IT COSTING YOU?” Sometimes, we have to be willing to let others down because otherwise we will not be serving our own needs. If others choose to get angry with you, that is on them.
When you are rewiring the ways in which you’ve chosen to believe and the concepts you have hung onto SO tightly your whole life it can feel like electrocution!
AN INTERNAL SHIFT SHAKES THINGS UP FROM THE INSIDE LIKE AN EARTHQUAKE DOES THE EARTH! You feel unstable, wobbly and terrified!
BUT you know you have come to a point where you are just SICK of those old beliefs because you KNOW in your heart of hearts that they haven’t served you or gotten you to where you want to be, living the life you know you can live. It’s ALL okay.
REST. Let the changes take place.
CRY. Let the energy be in motion{e-motion} because if it isn’t moving then it’s STUCK. And stuck is exactly where you do not want to be.
FALL APART. When you let things fall apart you have the opportunity to put them back together exactly the way that you want them and in a way that serves the new you and your new perspective.
I love being the Super Sensitive, Non-Traditional, sometimes considered “Eccentric” being that I am. I wouldn’t change it for the world or anyone in it. I FEEL Deeply, I am TUNED IN Tremendously to others and my environment, I am NOT buying into Traditional concepts UNLESS they fit my mood and desires {which they RARELY do} and I absolutely LOVE being immersed in Astrological, Cosmic knowledge and Alternative {Ancient} ways of healing regardless of how many ‘judge’ this, categorize me or LABEL me “Crazy”, “Flighty” or otherwise.
I AM ME and I spent a looong time hiding it and feeling ashamed because of others and their religious beliefs or otherwise. I had to really work through expressing who I am…..
AT FIRST, I WAS AFRAID, I WAS PETRIFIED…KEPT THINKIN I COULD NEVER LIVE WITHOUT TRADITIONALISTS BY MY SIDE.
BUT, THEN I SPENT SO MANY NIGHTS JUST THINKING HOW I WAS DOIN ME WRONG.
AND I GREW STRONG AND I LEARNED HOW TO GET ALONG!!!
And now I’M BACK, From OUTERSPACE!
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?!
OH NO, NOT I. I WILL SURVIVE!
{recognize that tune?} 😉
YOU WILL SURVIVE!
Feel the Fear and Keep loving your self through it!
CARDINAL GRAND CROSS IS HERE AND AT IT’S PEAK ON APRIL 23/24.
We are already feeling these effects and have been for awhile. And the energy is not done once the date passes….we will feel this through to summer and there is more to come. However, it is believed that this is one of the strongest of these aspects this month. Let me break down what this will mean.
Jupiter in Cancer: Square Uranus & Mars, Opposite Pluto
Pluto in Capricorn: Square Uranus & Mars, Opposite Jupiter
Where can you expand your inner world and how are old beliefs that have been conditioned by the past holding you back?
A Transformation of your structure and foundation is necessary and will come about whether you are willing or unwilling. Being adaptable only helps YOU to adjust to the changes that are necessary for your growth. Freedom is needed for growth and expansion. You may feel at odds with any others in your environment that appear to be holding you back and could act impulsively or rashly.
There is a spirit of adventure & rebellion in you now however fear of letting go of old ways of being and how you have set up your life could be holding you back. If you will let it go you will be able to see more clearly the bigger picture. Have faith and optimism that the changes you make will bring about great opportunities. The changes that occur now may feel shocking but they will be significant to your happiness when you take action from your hearts deepest desires.
Mars in Libra: Square Pluto & Jupiter, Opposite Uranus
Uranus in Aries: Square Pluto & Jupiter, Opposite Mars
This can cause us to feel very stubborn about the changes that are occurring. But, a stubborn or fixed attitude will do no good. We may feel intolerant and impatient, nervous and high strung. With Mars {planet of action and aggression} turned retrograde the energy is more inward focused. Therefore, you will need to assess your relationship with your self. How do you take a stand for what you believe in?
Tempers may flare and if you withhold what you are feeling it will build up inside and could potentially affect your health in a negative way. The other potential is that you will explode in a fit of anger having held inside all that you have been feeling. FIND A WAY TO RELEASE AGRESSION in a constructive and productive way. Get out and exercise and move your body. Be careful of being too domineering in your relationships and/or bullying others.
In Conclusion
Take a stand for what you believe in and do it with grace and charm
Express how you feel honestly with consideration for others. Do NOT hold it inside or it will erupt in anger or turn into illness.
Exert your independence and true to what is right for you but avoid rebellion just for the sake of it.
Have honest interaction in your relationships and the courage to speak your mind but resist being overly stubborn and argumentative.
REST. If you are feeling overwhelmed and your nervous system is maxed out then retreat and get the rest you need to withstand all of the challenging energy swirling around.
Ask yourself where you have been denying your self the freedom of expression you need, your heart’s deepest truths and how you can transform your restrictions into growth.
Where does your so called stability and structure need to be changed so that you can move on from your old out dated beliefs?