Day #6 Writing as Yoga Experience
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A journey for Clarity and a better understanding of the self…
My biggest challenges of 2014 have been getting past my own mind, my own idea that something is ‘hard’, or more difficult than it actually is. When I look back I see that running a Yoga Studio and trying to make it work while teaching, trying to do well with the marketing side, social media, private clients, workshops, managing the schedule, other workshops, teachers, my time, the studios time, my personal life was a big challenge. One that I never originally intended to take on because running a Yoga Studio was never a dream of mine. At least not once I became aware of the reality of it. However, I usually gladly take on challenges to see what I can learn from them. So, the opportunity presented itself and I took on the challenge! Luckily, I had an amazing business partner and friend that journeyed with me on this business venture. We worked well together and we worked hard but eventually we had to let the Yoga Studio go, as it just didn’t make sense for us any longer.
I struggled with the seeming “failure” of it all. The idea that we were ‘giving up’. The fear that others would make a judgment that we didn’t know what we were doing. And maybe we didn’t? I had to come to the realization that, there will ALWAYS be people who think they could do better than you. They might judge you or speak harshly when you’re not around. But, how many of them are out there doing it?!? It’s easy to talk and harder to DO. Not only that, but I had to accept it. It was okay if those thoughts were out there. What mattered, is that I knew the truth and I knew what was best for ME.
I don’t regret it. I don’t regret much of anything in life, because everything has taught me something and it’s made me who I am. But, this definitely pushed me to the edge and it made me realize what I want and what I don’t want in my life. I feel like all challenges have given me this gift. They’ve brought me closer to me. They’ve allowed me to learn and grow and open my eyes to what I may never have seen without their influence.
“Pain by itself is merely pain,
but the experience of pain coupled with an understanding
that the pain serves a worthy purpose is suffering.
Suffering can be endured because there is a reason for it that is worth the effort.
What is more worthy of your pain than the evolution of your soul?”
