“I AM WHATEVER YOU THINK I AM AND I AM NOTHING YOU IMAGINE ME TO BE.”
“She listened to her heart above all other voices”
This quote came to me at a time when I felt I was not living up to another’s expectation or image of who they thought I was. I realized I was not the illusion they had created in their head of who they thought I was or ‘should’ be. Maybe I wasn’t living up to my own image of who I thought I ‘should’ be. Maybe it was all an illusion?
EVERY TIME WE CREATE A STORY OR IMAGE IN OUR HEAD OF WHO WE ARE OR WHO SOMEONE ELSE IS, IT IS JUST THAT, A STORY. IT’S NOT REAL.
I am not what you think I am. Going further with this I realized that even though I am NO THING you imagine me to be, I am also EXACTLY whatever you THINK I am. That is the ‘truth’ as you see it. How you view yourself, anyone or anything is your truth. You’ve made it so. Is that what you WANT to believe? Why?
Since I have become a teacher I have changed immensely over the past few years. I’ve opened up more publicly. I have conquered many fears of sharing who I am and what I love. Things such as Astrology, yoga, my writings and anything that made me feel vulnerable began to flow through me more freely. But, BELIEVE ME, not without a fight. At first, I was absolutely TERRIFIED of being judged and disliked by people I cared about. { I am a LEO, after all 😉 } Now, I accept that the more I show myself, the more others will show their dislike for me, and the less I will care what others think. That’s okay. Have your opinions. Have your judgments. I am not afraid of them. I am not afraid of you. I know who I AM. Does it hurt me?? Sometimes, sure. I’d be a liar to say different. But, I know otherwise.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND I AM NOT YOUR PROJECTION
I AM.
When you are on the path of growth and you are focused on what is beyond this material existence, you become aware that YOU ARE MORE THAN YOUR BODY. YOU ARE MORE THAN THE THINGS YOU OWN. YOU ARE MORE THAN YOUR THOUGHTS.
You grow tired of drama, jealousy, conflict, arguing, and emotionally unavailable people/relationships that only confirm your inability to love yourself. Slowly, but surely, you’ll pull away from this. It’s a process of chipping away, day by day.
You will have friendships end abruptly but you’ll stand your ground on how you expect to be treated, and what energies, and people you will allow into your life. Parts of you will die. {Let me tell you, some DIE HARD.}
I have been attached to what I am doing, who I am with, immersed in and defined by looks, things, jobs, Yoga, Astrology, relationships, even my spiritual path and practices. Only to realize I am NONE of them. I understood this on an intellectual level. But, I wasn’t getting it where it mattered…..in my heart. In my soul.
The stories we make up feed our ego in some way. There is a human need to identify with an image and categorize others.
Elisa Romeo wrote an eye opening book called Meet your Soul. The more I read it, the more it resonates deep within. In her book she says, “What you truly are at your core is the you that is behind and beyond the ego. Yes, part of you is your ego, but most of you is not. You are the consciousness and energy behind those roles. A healthy ego is a good assistant, the main operations manager to your Soul, the CEO of your Divine unique universe.” She goes on to say, “ If we have too much identification with ego or too much identification with ungrounded and unintegrated Spirit, problems arise, such as inflation, spiritual narcissism, ego-identified complexes, trauma, physical ailments, or mental illness.”
“I AM whatever you think I am and I am nothing you imagine me to be.”
The images of me above are just that, images. Whatever you see is what you see. There may be some truth to it, there may not be. It’s just a story.
This is one way in which dealing with criticism and other people’s opinions helps. Because the more you put yourself out there, the more you share your heart, the more you show up, the more you will receive backlash and so called “haters”. Most are just afraid of expressing their own truth. They can’t possibly fathom anyone else living so BOLDLY. Some just won’t resonate with you.
IT’S ALL GOOD. BECAUSE IT’S ALL AN ILLUSION.
Don’t mistake me. When you put yourself out there you will also, receive more blessings, more courage, more of the gift of being you without apology. There is NOTHING more satisfying than expressing yourself FULLY and freely, regardless of the thoughts or opinions of others on how you should live your life.
When I fall into the habit of putting a story or label on someone or something else, it helps me to remember they are not ‘that’. They are. You are. I am. It is. IT IS WHATEVER YOU THINK IT IS AND IT IS NOTHING YOU IMAGINE IT TO BE.
Let life BE. Listen to your heart. Stop trying. Stop pushing. Stop labeling. Stop gripping SO TIGHTLY, lest you squeeze the life out of what you love.
What makes your soul sing? What makes your heart dance? Move towards that as if NO ONE was watching. Let everything else just fade away.
I am everything. I am nothing.
I am the student. I am the teacher.
I am a follower. I am a leader.
I am a fighter. I am a lover.
I am scared. I am brave.
I am mad. I am glad.
I am hated. I am loved.
I am stuck. I am movement.
I am dull. I am funny.
I am wounded. I am healed.
I am silence. I am laughter.
I am confused. I am enlightened.
I am a foe. I am a friend.
I am feminine. I am masculine.
I am disloyal. I am true.
I am small. I am infinite.
I am day. I am night.
I am earth. I am sky.
I am trapped. I am free.
I am you. I am me.
I am the microcosm. I am the macrocosm.
I am the Universe. I am the galaxy.
I am all of that. I am none of it.
I AM.
xo,
♥ J-Ma
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